Wow… Just wow….right now I am reading Medicine of the Hearts by Ibn Al Qayyem and he said something that hit me deep down in my heart that I could not afford but to close the book and share it with you here. He said:

“One of the effects of sins is that it brings fear and feelings of loneliness to the heart. Because of sins Allah throws fear and horror into the heart of the sinner so that you never see him but afraid and terrified. Whoever fears Allah, Allah will SECURE him from everything and whoever doesn’t Allah will scare him from everything.

One of the  punishments of the sins is that they bring great loneliness to the heart so that the sinner finds himself lonely, he finds himself lonely between him and his Lord, he finds himself lonely between him and other people, he finds himself lonely between him and himself. The more the sins increase the more loneliness increases. The most bitter life is the life of the loners and the most vibrant good life is the life of those who are happy.”

I experienced both of them fear and loneliness.

ONE: when I know that I have a sin that I didn’t quit I find myself always in fear, fear that our company’s system might get corrupted, fear that a meeting will fail, fear that I will be poor, fear that I will be sick, fear of my future, fear of people, and sometimes fear without a reason although everything in my life seems in control.

TWO: loneliness, no matter how many friends I am surrounded with I still feel lonely and bored and I say “why am I here?!”

ON THE OTHER hand when I know that I have quit a sin that I know I do regularly three things happen:

1. I feel the sweetness of the feeling of success and victory.

2. I really don’t care about life troubles anymore. I just feel that I am in this sphere of protection 24/7.

3. I never fear lonely even if I am alone. I just find myself busy, happy, relaxed, content and a great feeling of tranquility deep down in my heart and calmness.

Believe me brothers and sisters there is nothing worse than fearing of loneliness and fear, your life simply becomes a misery. No one knows your sins better than you and no one will really appreciate and understand the bitterness of the feelings of loneliness and fear that you are experiencing. They might show compassion when you complain to them but when they leave each one will get busy and forget you and you will go back to your lonely cubicle of DEPRESSION, loneliness and fear.

Sit with yourself. Remember what sins you need to quit and QUIT THEM NOW. You cannot afford to live a single additional minute in these feelings of loneliness, fear and depression.